Facing the unlikely-but-perhaps-possible emotion
In my lightning talk at the end of YAPC, I had mentioned a few details about roommates I've had. This included weird/funny/surprising/scary details.
I'd first like to express (and I tried doing it in the lightning talk even though I was running out of time doing two talks in under 5 minutes) that these are people I respect, and had pleasure meeting and spending time with. Please do not assume for one second that if I could do it again I would do it differently. I wouldn't.
More importantly, I was told that perhaps one of my comments (relating to the sexual preference of a person) might have came off not as I intended. I've asked a few people about that and no one said they misunderstood. However, for the record, I must make this clear: I have no business whatsoever to declare one sexual preference or another as anything other than that person's choice. That is, I would like to say that any sexual preference is great, but it's none of my fucking business who or what you are attracted to. It is your decision and yours alone. There is no "good" or "bad", there is only your decision. I always support people's rights (in this case the LGBT community), but I also know you don't need (and shouldn't wait) for anyone approval for whatever lifestyle you have.
My comment was to stress the amusement of the puzzlement of a person who cannot understand (though not because they're ignorant or a bad person) how far people can go while hiding their true feelings. It's sad, but personally I can still chuckle at it sometimes. A person who had created an entire life while wanting something else, and a person on the sidelines clearly not understand how that goes. "What do you mean you're a lesbian? We have 6 kids!" - it just made me laugh... :)
I hope I hadn't hurt anyone in this regard, and if I did, I do honestly and truly apologize. No one had told me this was taken differently, but I'm not assuming people who did will step up, so I'm offering in advance my explanation and heart-felt apologies.
Also, on a side-note that I did want to make at the conference but hadn't gotten the chance: as an extending of Schwern's keynote, you should read the geek-feminist wikia timeline of incidents. It takes a pretty long time (I know since I've read the whole thing right before coming to YAPC::NA) but it's worth it. In the words of Schwern: "depressing, isn't it?" - yes, it is, but I think we cannot truly understand how often and how easily we make others feel uncomfortable or out-right offended about their gender without listening to them and seeing what people have done. This extends to the understand of racial bias as well, and our misunderstanding and complete oversight of it.
These are not "a bunch of girls bitching" - but rather your colleagues and peers trying to say "you're pushing me out! Oh, you want examples? Sure! Here they are." - note these examples, listen to your peers and try to understand what they're saying.
Thanks to Schwern for the keynote and to the GeekFeminist Wikia contributors.